work hard and play hard

Donno y this 2 days totally out of working mood. Don felt like working during working hours, and felt myself very tiring..everyday work work work and cant c any money. All my money will gone away for all my debts and I got no saving at all. Sometimes felt that so tiring , work is just because wan to clear my debts. Totally disappointed with my current situation, current job, and current financial status. Besides, I also felt so tiring when think of my huge debts..I donno when I can finish pay and start got saving, I donno how many years it takes to pay back all. sometimes a bit mad on this when think of..

Donno when I will have extra for saving, donno when I can give my parents and aunts money to use..donno when I can buy a house...Most of the time I choose not to think, work hard..but sometimes it just come arcoss my mind....y am I so young but got such a huge debts, the only answer that can comfort me is that I have been to UK and europe country when I was at this age..

I always console myself, after the rain and storming...there will be rainbow for me..

Hopefully very soon.....I know my grandma always take good care of me up there..I can felt it...

Thanks....

Should Appreciate what I having now and less complaining current situation....it is much more better than most of the people outside...